its so discouraging and i dont want to try again. vic kept saying i have to give you a chance. and give myself a chance. but how many chances have i given? and everytime it felt worse than before. somehow i thought im immune to your criticism but you prove me wrong all the time. i do mind afterall.
i need to be stronger. hopefully (:
anyway, i just added something on deviantart. was surprised that i actually bothered to re-do it again after i accidentally closed the final touchup without saving it. it feels good doodling with photoshop...
