realised i needed the time to think so i took the long way and walked home from the bus stop. sigh. i seriously dont like the eunice who tries to avoid facing some issue whenever she cant seem to understand or cope with. so i try reasoning it out to myself. but it aint working, things that i didnt get it initially remain not understood.
somehow i admire people who can go all out doing something that they really believe in. not holding back nor turning back, there's the goal and they go straight for it. there's a lot of things i would really want to follow my heart, but there just seems to be this little part of me who thinks too much. what if this happens? what if that happens? and the very fact that im not someone who lets go easily.
this place is too practical. and its bothering me. or is it me, who just dont dare to choose my own way because im being practical myself. correction, i think its me. because there are so many people out there who dare to be different, to pursue something that they like and enjoy.
so the problem lies with me.
and i'll continue thinking in the meantime. hahaha.
anyway, -random- but its really a good idea to exercise with a friend cos it motivates (: 20:14
