hmm.. cheeyang won the campus superstar and i think he rocked the house down tonight (: hahah. idol =D
but i think the entire afternoon i was trying to distract myself again, with project work which totally pissed me off and a lot of other things. things dont sound good whenever i need to distract myself.
there's a reason why i appear offline more often than usual now. there's a reason why i find myself an excuse to stay away.
whenever i see you online, im reminded of the fact that i cant let go. we can still talk crap like before but i know the feeling is never the same. you have your own life and i have mine. eight months ago, we cried because we couldnt let go, but eight months later, it seems to me that the memories are fading away fast and you have moved on and im still there.
and i couldnt talk to you online just now. i couldnt bear to. somehow i thought i should have let go from then and you know, move on with life, meet new people and yeah start anew. i dont know. maybe you are too much like a sister and a sister never leaves, somehow. but its dumb to hold on because in a few months' time, we would have lost what binded us together. where do we go after that?
its weird because im not supposed to feel so attached to you given the normal circumstances. as in... there are ppl that im supposed to feel more attached to, but yet i think im drifting further from them. each time i go back, i dont feel the sense of belonging anymore and it scares me a little. familiar faces turn unfamiliar all of a sudden.
