gah blogger's kind of screwed so i end up posting two entries even they are done at two different times.
i was on a long car trip home about an hour ago, the feeling was just right and its that kind of expressway where you can just see the lamp posts pass by one after another.
i realise how dumb i was because all along, its me who is depriving myself of chances. the reason i was always feeling quite sore over that incident was that i refuse to get over it. you've got over it already. but not me. im still thinking about it. in a sense, im so glad i took the bus with you on wednesday because at least i have confidence of really starting anew. all these while, no matter how bad i feel, everytime i find myself avoiding it cos im just afraid that the bad memories of those days will just surface. how foolish i am. "just forget it" it came from you and you smiled.
that's a closure. now i really see a new beginning. apart from the one i promise at the start of the year.
