i was pretty much distracted today. not distractions though, just that distraction.
they say distractions are there for some reason, either to wake you up so you wont get so engrossed in whatever you are doing and forget the other essentials, or for you to get a breather. i think they all scammed me.
they forgot that there are two kinds of distractions - one that can make you laugh, and another you will rather forget no matter what happens.
i was distracted everywhere. in the canteen, at the class bench, in the high school audi, in the lt. i think at some points of time i was just reacting weirdly. not within my own comprehension. knew i shouldnt get distracted during dazu, it aint a good time and place. but im really sorry i couldnt help it at all. i didnt want to remember every single crap that i've been trying so hard to throw into the toilet bowl and flush them away.
they all didnt work. and now i dont know what to do except to wait for see what happens. im waiting for years alr, unfortunately.
5 more days.
just a random question. is there really something im truly capable of?
for now, at least. i know i cant handle flashbacks. and myself. 23:27
