today was hcco exco elections, okay day one. there were a couple of really genuine speeches that touched me. but frankly speaking, when there are ppl out there who im not even familiar with, i guess i was looking out for sincerity. hmm. dont know why, but i kind of went home with loads of random thoughts. sitting on the lt seat, i was listening, and what i heard really made me think. about co. about nyco. about me.
guess i never really declare this before, but co does hold a really special place in my heart. i used to doubt it sometimes, but perhaps not so anymore. i guess in my four years, i experienced quite a bit, both the good and the bad. the good memories that at times, i would very much want to relive and the bad memories that i will never forget cos they were there for a reason, to remind me not to repeat the same freaking mistake i have made and regretted. esp my last year, it had been an ultra super bumpy yet fulfiling year.
think i never gave myself a closure for this, shall just do it now since im thinking about it so much just now, but serving my term as a sl last year was really a roller coaster ride. stress was faced, had to overcome, had to lead and of course mistakes were made. i can still remember i was really stressed cos i felt that i could not help the section much in terms of skills. till now, i still regret, and what i can be glad of is that the juniors were really self-motivated and you guys never know how much im so proud of you guys and yeahh somemore you ppl are in good hands. mr lee is really a good instructor. and i rmb, the times with juniors wanting to quit, getting them to stay, seeing them love the co day by day, my conflict with xiaowei that surfaced, syf and everything. everything that taught me to draw mental strength from within. i can still rmb that fateful day that i broke down at kwong wai shiu hospital during cca cip last yr(i know its a weird time and place) but that was a painful but essential realisation. communication and interaction ARE important. at that pt of time, i failed to do so or rather was kinda oblivious. i apologised and still apologise. xiaowei, if you ever read this, im really sorry. but i've learnt. i guess its always when you finally stood up from that fall, will you then find that love for something overwhelming. same thing when you climb a mountain, after the bumpy climb, things get better, and we all enjoy that beautiful sunset together. and i guess that's probably why i always feel bonded to ny only through nyco.
co changed me. without it, i guess im not the eunice i am today. it made me stronger. it made me realise there's something that i feel for. its something more than just a cca.
and yeah. interesting how elections spark off such thoughts. hahaha. and i havent given my speech yet. =p bet it will still be kinda random. im just such a random person.
on a side note, today was great cos it was a slack day in school and we had an hour and 45 min of captain's ball. which totally rocked. but my shoulder still hurts from that bad knock, ah there's a bruise x( ah wells.
haha tmr still have to go to school to paint concert banner. =D