still alive? i gotta resurrect before bio tmr when another killer waits in silence.
oh well, when you actually have a lot of time left after you are done with your questions, something must be very very wrong. take for example, guessing answers for mcq takes no effort, if you dont count psychic powers.
and im still very amused by robert using rref to do the calculations for chem, hahahah multidisciplinary. ><
less than 24 hours.
i'll be back. 18:01
27 June 2006
val just send me this link. its damn cool (: good entertainment i think, the girl's pretty talented.
think i desperately need some form of entertainment, guess sitting there to mug full-time is just not my thing. such a failed mugger-to-be! HAHA. and not that i have the time from the entire world or something to try cram things into that saturated or uncooperative brain.
anyway GP today, and the compo was quite alright i guess, environment qns cant be that hard, though i was secretly praying that something to do with internet comes out... but compre was quite a freak. especially the AQ, i was literally rushing and part b was more screwed than screwed. haha.
then after paper, it was another dose of daily entertainments from sevenfivers...
you guys actually made me want to come back to school even when its blocks. hahaha. i cant believe it.
[edit]my dear fever, can you stop playing hide and seek with me? its equally disturbing even when you come to visit almost close to the end of my day. ): or let's say, beginning of the day?
urgh. i need to watch what i eat. [/edit] 23:25
26 June 2006
blocks are finally here!!!
which means i go to school and fidget or mug before the paper. write at top speed or blank out during the paper. and rejoice after it.
#1 thing to celebrate: econs is finally over! was literally crapping my way through everything and thank goodness they split the section, otherwise i will most probably not be able to allocate my time properly and flunk it or sth. was quite okay i think, not to mention the giddiness during the second paper and i was pausing and resting when i was frantically writing.
and yes. how unlucky can i get. think i caught a cold last night when i was at the supermarket and ran a fever that shot up to 38.1 in the middle of the night. luckily, everything was fine today. HECK. just dont make me sick after the blocks when i am all so ready to rejoice.
okay, back to mugging i think.
im so gonna die for gp tmr! urgh. 16:41
22 June 2006
urgh. why does my mum not allow me to perform for alumni ): sighhh.
but nice veronica is accompanying me to watch nyco's concert! hahaha, yay (: then we can have a nice cellobass gathering if zhengyuan and xuyang's joining us too. they just made my day. hehh. its been a long time since we last met up...
and yes. if chankeet comes around with this link to a video about a car and ghostly images, pls dont be as stupid as me to open it. =.= sigh. that thing scared me almost to death, i literally jumped and screamed. screamed. and my mum came to ask who screamed and i was too embarassed to say its me so i lied and said its the neighbour.
but apparently the adrenaline didnt make me study more. so sad. that's kind of wasted. 22:01
solution one to my pigging problem: mug outside home.
apparently it worked yesterday (: went to woodlands library and i went without food for a good four hours except a sweet. i just have to stop bingeing before i suffer from a indigestion case never so serious before! ACK. oh well, then maybe i'll end up ending MCs and miss blocks instead. what a dream! =x
im so not prepared! and here i am kidding (self-psycho-ing) myself that if i have a lil more confidence in me, then maybe things are not that bad afterall. hehh.
okay stop slacking. gotta start preparing to go school to mug with yueqi! 08:44
went back to visit juniors yesterday and had proven something.
i miss nyco a hell lot. its just one of those times you wanna rewind time and return to those days. i miss the orchestra with those familiar faces, those ppl i've known for years. the faces i saw yesterday, half of them are foreign, and half of those familiar ones were so distant.
the only person who seriously brought back tons of memories during that short period of time when i sat at that corner was miss chek. miss her loads seriously i miss her conducting. the way she expresses herself and even her 一个一个来. haha. no idea why, its a very special feeling when she saw us at the door yesterday and waved to us (: and yeah, i dont think i will ever forget that gift of words she gave me the day before syf last year.
yeah, have faith and i'll never be alone.
and have faith juniors, you guys will make it on the 2nd. ((:
-hugs 21:17
12 June 2006
i know what im supposed to do.
but i dont know what the hell im thinking because i have zilch motivation doing it.
maybe i should start poking a voodoo doll and draw every inch and cm of motivation to pull me through. man. it gets darn exasperating when you take a step back and realise that you have been slacking for the past minutes or even hours doing weird stuff.
but then again, weird stuff does not equate to useless stuff. i enjoyed all the lil conversations and of course the pigging. (i think i snack a lot more when i try to study)
not to forget the wonderful field trip down to macritchie with my dearest pw group mates, catching insects and fish! ((: and i was holding on to that super big digicam of yueqi and hanging it by my neck like some mad tourist. heh. rewarding experience indeed... heh and somehow i got the feeling that rei horng and yueqi were the happiest kids down at the reservoir this afternoon. HAHA.
oh wells and the monkeys are scary cute. haha.
interesting start to the week. what's up, next?
mugging first, my dear. 22:52
11 June 2006
went for my godbrother's wedding dinner last night and had one of my most awkward dinners. for who-knows-what-reason, im supposed to sit at that table meant for immediate family members. not that im not close to my god family, but the rest of the table didnt know me. x( heh thanks yueqi for tolerating with my sms complaints, cos at some point of time, i desperately just want to dig a hole and hide.
thank goodness the food was there to distract me. and there's this really cute lil boy whose mastery of teochew put me to shame. AH. T.T
i guess, it brought tons of memories seeing them again. even when the link between us is lost forever. she lives in our hearts doesnt she? and you said i changed. afterall, im seventeen. not that lil girl whose hand you used to hold everywhere we go.
though i still miss you as my big brother. (:
and this is my beautiful life;
only thing certain is everything changes;
14:04
09 June 2006
finally settled down to do some mugging.
but its kind of inefficient, considering the fact that i studied for 1 hour and rested for 2 hours. dont make sense. zzz. where did my sense of urgency go? where is the emergency button? HIT IT HIT IT!
gah.
oh. and shawn just promised me two bars of chocolates if i pass bio (:
c'mon eunice!
可以的。 20:48
08 June 2006
next week is so gonna be more fulfiling than this week. i bet.
its getting a lil boring and i dont know what i want to do with myself. i can just sit there and wait and wait and the next thing i know 30 minutes have gone by.
and i wanna draw againn. ((: its kind of addictive but wait i think i lost my nice soft eraser. drew last night and i forgot to draw in the smile of that angel. might as well. we cant be happy and joyful all the time.
too unrealistic isnt it? you just need the mood swings to know you are still living.
i'm just beginning; the pen's in my hand; ending unplanned. 20:17
06 June 2006
they say its good to ask questions. and i have a question today.
how on earth do i avoid your wrath?
do you know how tiring it is to be so conscious of everything, and yet realise that everything still dont work? you were still so angry.
seriously at this time, you shouldnt get angry so you will get well soon. and i should continue tolerating.
but after a day's worth of scoldings and black faces, i really want no more.
sigh.
oh anyway, went for a haircut today and the hairdresser trimmed my hair a bit too much and now i cant really tie it up. ah wells. changes? 20:19
and eunice screwed up the sectional item cos she forgot one phrase. which totally sucked. ack.
sigh i so hate my sweaty palms and fingers, you can literally see water droplets on my fingerboard after playing. and my fingers threaten to slide off the slippery fingerboard every now and then.
>< c'mon eunice!
ahhh. damn tired now, but still have to go library for pw tmr. anyone knows how to go national library? o.O
oh anyway, i found something damn cool.
Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. 22:03
01 June 2006
some reasons why the night is tough
1) im tired. tried sleeping early but it didnt help cos i just couldnt sleep.
2) my back aches.
3) im coughing. urgh.
4) the blister on the toe that burst now itches. >< and i dont want an infection of some sort cos it will be super torturing when i wear my court shoes tmr or sun.
5) i cant find the cable that connects my computer and mp3 player. please do not play hide and seek with me. hmph.
okay, i do not want another reason to make this night tougher. -.-
co concert this sunday, jiayou ppl ((: 可以的。
shall reply tags...
samantha: thanks for that (: i hope it can stay that way too. been kind of a miracle, serious.
ivan: hees. thanks.. yeahh cough pls go away and voice pls come back.
sophia: rock on, tentmate! ((:
feL: i shall go bombard you online next time. HAHA.
sometimes, we just need that lil faith to leap across that obstacle. im not sure how much faith i still have in me, but the least i can do, is to try.
