sometimes i dont know when you are joking and when you are not.
what happened yesterday
me: i will be reaching home late mum: going to be as late as 11pm right? me: no not that late mum: okay if you are not home by 10, you owe me 10 bucks
and great i reached home at 10.15 last night, and she just came in to tell me i owe her 10 bucks. wth.
my mum loves to joke. and this is not funny at all. 17:38
more updates from me! (:
this weekend seems pretty packed but hopefully some fun and happiness comes dropping by and what it has been doing for the past day!
friday's school was slack as usual and hahaha. my happiest lesson = individual swimming with mr ling! omg. okay it aint that bad since he's quite nice, just that it gets really boring at times because i can only talk to him and see the rest of the class over at the other pool! hehh. who asks me not to swim these past few years till i really forgot most of it. hahaha. and yeahh i think i've got a tan from swimming! woah.
then it was qing gong yan in the evening and we went dorea's house to pia the presents for seniors. muahaha. dyb seniors better be glad you have super creative juniors who use real milk bottles. XD but apparently i bought too much sweets so maybe we can have sweet feasts during dazus! haha. the food was quite nice though i didnt eat a lot. and yeahh thought the event was enjoyable. hcco! ((: but then the taxi ride was pretty screwed. although the uncle seemed kind enough to allow 5 passengers, but the moment he tried to steer out the taxi it scrapped another taxi i think. and then he kept wanting to leave the expressway via the wrong exits and yadayada and he kept yawning when he was driving. freaky! and we couldnt stand it when the taxi reached bt panjang he kept turning into the wrong road, we simply alighted at the nearest lrt station. -.- so much for a taxi ride.
ohhh then yesterday morning was cip again before meeting for pw at hougang. haha. okay i was ahead of time by 1 hour, so i slacked around a bit and sulked another bit cos i was yearning for more money. haha. so pw at rh's house was quite productive i think (: everyone jiayou! (ahhh will this help? haha)
anyway, we met up with sam's pw group for dinner since zhuting lives so near to rh. went Hans to eat hahah and that concluded with me having less than 1 buck left in my wallet. but the highlight of the night were the laughters we shared last night! i swear 75 is the funniest bunch of people i have ever met, i literally laughed till my stomach hurt so badly and yeahh yueqi we might get a very toned tummy after that! and chris seah rocked XD i was like o.O when he really wore yueqi's super super small blazer with it buttoned up and paraded around that area as a dare... that guy is the ultimate! then after that, just before we went home we stood at SOMEPLACE and started laughing like mad people again. XD and mr reihorng is one big pollutant that ought to be converted by some catalytic converter! haha
yes i do and really do appreciate all the lameness flying around me! always thought they brought me a lot of happiness, and a laughter is really something that can be shared with everyone!
and like royston said, its the happiness and content that really counts.
(: im gonna continue laughing on monday! 10:51
27 July 2006
disclaimer: this is going to be one BIG angry entry. i think you know who he is.
first of all, he's such an ass. and he's getting more irritating by the day, and seriously im really tired of him spoiling my day. sometimes maybe cos i really dont feel like looking at him, im biased, i have already stereotyped him, but even when he didnt do anything to irritate, im still irritated. urgh.
and then he went on to be a bigger ass today. i tell you, if you are telling us that you are getting pissed at our class, let me tell you, we are getting more pissed at you than you are at us. it's really not funny seeing you every single day, tolerating with your crap and the fact that you cannot teach. and you dont try to save yourself by being a nicer teacher. okay, maybe we are a little at fault because we are late, but then wait, no one wants to go for your lessons. you see the problem there? you cant teach, you cant motivate us, you dont make us feel as though we are going to enjoy the lesson. before you point a finger at others, pls remember you have pointed three other fingers back at yourself.
yeah i remembered. so im not going to play saint and say im so angelic and yadayada because i know im not. i've got an ungraded for chem. i'm not exactly super attentive in class as well. sometimes i dont do tutorials. and yes i slacked. but at least i think i dont try to find excuses for myself. and what's the point of getting people to stand when they've got ungraded subjects during the block test? raises the self-esteem? you gotta be kidding. and arent the ct supposed to be more concerned about the pupil's welfare? and how come i dont feel that from you?
maybe i was too skeptical this afternoon. but yeah i dont think you have been doing the right thing anyway. and yeah you dont ever think that im blaming my grades on the j3 teachers, they have been tons better than you i believe.
urgh.
it's really our luck to have gotten you.
it's not the right way to test our resilience. 19:50
26 July 2006
damn. my butt hurts.
so here's an account of what went wrong during ct session this afternoon. eunice, apparently trying to act smart and be lazy, decided she would climb over the chairs to move up to the upper row. but then halfway trying it, she reasoned to herself that she didnt want to split her skirt cos it's pretty sad. so she tried estimating and crossed hoping she wont split her skirt. yes she didnt split it in the end, but she almost split her butt cos there's a wrong gauge and she fell.
so it was -laughs. not exactly painful. but guess what, the butt is hurting now ):
spoilt my mood for the night. 22:17
25 July 2006
okay i've managed to put up a song on the blog. this song makes me sleepy hahaha but i like the peace it brings in me...
woots. pw is still never-ending but i guess we will push on! i love my group cos we are a bunch of great people! HI 171! (: great time pia-ing, great time snacking (sorry yueqi but i think i almost wiped out the nori seaweeds haha), and great time niao-ing you-know-who...
so we went to yueqi's house today and her room is so small and cosy! and her dog MooMoo is super duper cute and active. but i think its damn tiko as well XD muahaha. and it bites yueqi's t-shirt haha. but the most important thing is we did work. (: yay!
anyway, i guess im glad i shared the confusion because at least things dont seem so confusing anymore. no idea why im feeling this way, but you know the most exasperating thing about being confused is being unable to identify why you feel confused. and after sharing, you suddenly realise perhaps others might have experienced it before and things start to become better. but nonetheless, thanks robert! ((:
tag replies
chuanhan:hahah thank goodness the thigh cramps no longer come back to haunt me! and i promise to keep myself fitter! (:
royston: heh not that exaggerated lah. triathlon and marathon? you think im superwoman is it? haha im not aiming for napfa full marks like you!
iamburpy: okayy so i guess there is a reason why you called me. hahah shall take it as it is since we all dont know what it is! haha and i thank you for praying for me (: thanks for being there too! sorry i couldnt talk to you tonight cos i was busy... and yah maybe you can try sending the song to me again...
samantha: okayy maybe you can help me on friday... but then again, i dont want to have individual lesson or sth esp when im the only one who cant finish 50m. urgh.
yueqi: hi yao! a.k.a moomoo's maid! (:
it may seem that you dont know when to stop your feet and take a look around you. or is it that you dont want to, that's why its not stopping?
23:16
23 July 2006
finally done with EOM! just to find myself troubled.
so it seems that im actually more bothered than what i thought i would be. because the thought keeps coming back every now and then for the entire day despite me telling myself its nothing much and it wont affect me. how great. i love lying to myself.
i guess its the same old feeling as that period of time last year, everything happened just at the right timing and yeah. just that this time round, i felt it more strongly. all the questioning of myself all over again, but the thing is i still have no idea what i exactly want. what is happening now is going against what i should be believing and wanting. at a few points of time today, i reasoned to myself that i have to live for myself. but by not considering the situation, i think im really really selfish. its that sense of guilt. i will be disappointing you guys and i dont want it.
but am i just living the way that you guys want me to? you set the path, i follow. but what if the path is leading me further and further away from my land of dreams? what else can i do?
anyway, this is random. but shawn just called me for no apparent reason.
maybe some things happen for no reason. you just have to follow your heart. can i ever do it in peace?
so conflicted. 22:18
22 July 2006
LEAP for public speaking today and yeahh, i shall not declare what i did. who knows how safe this place is, i dont want to get into unnecessary trouble =p
i guess what was special today was the fact that i went for a church service for the first time in my entire life. erm to be honest, i have no idea that im actually going for one until i kind of reached there then i realised what was really going on cos the initial thing was to 'go and support simon in his band performance' haha. if you ask me how was it today, i really dont know how to answer, because the feeling is simply undescribable. its just a thousand and one feelings mixed together and at some point of time, it just felt a little overwhelming, especially during the sermon. there are some things that are just so relevant. but ah well, at some point of time, you cant stop me from being skeptical as well.
i wonder how would my parents react if they knew i went for a church service. the house will probably be blasted or something. but to be fair, i think the service has been a really refreshing experience for me. hahah and fungmin and suet are in robert's and simon's church. HAHA. singapore is really small.
and yes time to do chem ilp. im lagging behind alr.
woots. 22:30
21 July 2006
woots. i swam for the first time in nth years during swimming lesson today and i swear i felt like dying. HAHA. i cannot remember how and all the damn techniques are wrong. and i cant finish 50m, heh oh wells. it may sound pathetic, but it feels good to be in the water after so long. hahaha. and swimming is fun when no one pons it ((: HAHA.
and yeahh actually i was really shocked when i knew the guys waited for us to go for lunch after swimming lessons, cos seriously they could have their full break instead of plain waiting outside the toilet. haha. and frankly speaking, i think its quite fortunate cos the class guys are pretty nice, and half or most of the time, they compromise and yadayada. haha. and come to think of it, they tolerate with all the crap yesterday deciding whether to buy saris or watch movie. hahaha. (okay wait, this is not a praise. haha)
and swimming tires me out. im like zonked and my arms ache and well this seriously means i need to exercise more to keep myself fit. yeah i was so tired close to the end of school, but thank goodness the performance for j2 ct went well (: and yeah i made a bargain with sean and bought the cornflakes at 4 for $1 during the racial harmony bazaar.
when there was me and you. great song from high school musical! (:
i thought you were my fairytale;
a dream when im not sleeping;
a wish upon the star that's coming true;
21:17
20 July 2006
hmm. its interesting that i actually have the real mood to blog something long today, considering its close to the end of the week and yeahh i do feel a lil tired and stuff.
anyway its halfday today thanks for the champs that the sports teams have been bagging and yeahh congrats to all (: so today was pretty slack and our dearest fickle minds made us change minds so many times between movie and buying costumes for racial harmony day tmr till it took us a freaking 2.5 hours. frankly, im very amused by it hahah and never in my life have i decided something like that for so long. i guess for every single thing, there's always a first time XD so in the end, we decided on pirates of the caribbean which was pretty good i think, captain jack is still ever-interesting. yupp. so the movie's pretty worth-the-money. but seriously, i still dont think its a good idea to watch movie during weekends despite the convenience and yadayada, cos if you have a budget like mine every week you will seriously think twice. im actually running on deficit and i have no idea why i am still spending. ): but if its on food, i probably wont mind, cos its a personal thing. haha.
on the other hand, block test results are finally all out. and let's see, i've got a BCEEU. oh well that ungraded looks really badd ): but actually im rather happy in the sense that i've passed bio for the first time in the year and its a 49. (: one more mark to D but who cares its a feat alr! so shawn, if you are reading this, you owe me a chocolate cos i pass bio. hahah and i forgot to tell you that 45 is the passing mark.
as i blogged earlier, i actually had quite a bit to say about this entire block test thing. hmm. the first important and scary thing, i think i have a problem with horrible grades. im not exactly affected by them at all, the thing is i probably will whine a bit, comment a bit, but then at the end of the day, i find myself indifferent to it. i have an inkling why im feeling like that, most probably because of the environment i was in in my upper sec days. i can still remember intially how worried i was in the beginning of sec three when im seriously not performing, but soon i simply reasoned that there's no pt comparing, getting myself so stressed and its not worth it and i can always work at my own pace and try to better myself the next time. but try this for one and a half years, you get into the state of what i am now today.
but its still the same me. i dont deny grades are important at this point of time, we are students afterall. but there's seriously something more than just grades. a person can never be measured quantitatively. but its very sad when i see a lot of people doing something because of the sake of doing it, for the sake of something else, but not for the sake of that subject involved.
but anyway congrats to those who did well ((: and people like me who screwed up something here and there. i think we can jiayou together and meanwhile you can try making me feel a little more worried about my school work. that might help, who knows. =p
i think too much tonight? i think so too. or maybe because half the time i dont say a thing no one knows and yeah. there's a lot of things i dont usually tell, unless i can trust you and you can understand that the things i say are not really nuts. sevenfive has been great really. great people, great environment. and i should say i've opened up quite a bit, i guess its the feeling that sometimes when you feel comfortable its easier to talk.
and sometimes i think back. maybe my sec four classmates wont know me better than you guys. i didnt change at all.
okay wait that sounded pathetic. oh wells.
alright, time to stop. its getting out of hand, the entry is long. 21:36
19 July 2006
if im going to get those thigh cramps like today's, im hell going to exercise. and i mean, really exercise. cos today was really really bad and painful.
so for no good reason, my right thigh cramped damn badly one quarter into the ct session performance and it lasted throughout the song! two sharp pains in all, and at one part i was like literally almost dead. and later another cramp on the way back to lt and another one in lt3. 4 cramps in a row, what is this? i have no idea whether something really wrong is going on, but for now i assume i need to exercise more definitely. and xiaowei's method of 'curing' thigh cramps was really scary and its scarier when i refuse to do it cos it hurt so much and i have xiaowei and chuanhan and shirlene grabbing to me, trying to help. hahahah. XD okayy ur effort is definitely appreciated.
-.-
and yeahh i shot in 3 balls today. no big deal? big deal for me. HAHAHA.
i rather kid myself and say its not tyco. hahaha. 20:26
17 July 2006
guess we should be expecting to get back all the results for blocks this week. since the day i took my blocks, its obvious that everything's gonna be screwed. and yeah of course i screwed up again.
so far its E for maths. and U for chem. yes, its ungraded. damn. ):
i have something to say, but i guess i shall just hold on and see how's the rest first. there's something that i ought to drill in myself and there's another thing of having no idea how to break the news to my parents, esp my mum. i really really dont want another heated-up episode at home. sigh. everything just happen at a very wrong timing.
stay optimistic? how realistic is that? and will you ever understand? 21:18
15 July 2006
heh. my previous post got erased ): okayy now im in no mood to reblog.
short updates...
there's no more news from the battlefield, think the battle has died down and the soldier is tired and needs her rest. she needs to prepare herself for any battle that may spring up any moment. stay alert!! XD
and thanks for everyone who kind of helped me through this lil phase (: -hugs! okayy for once, i think hugs really bring comfort sometimes.
and some random stuff here. 1. im still so pw-ish! go HI 171! ((: jiayou yueqi, nicholas, reihorng, kityeng (and me -.-) 2. high school musical is nice! anyone has the soundtrack? HAHA send me! 3. are we still watching pirates of the caribbean as a class?
tag replies...
xiaohong: hello and thanks.. think the bad times are over for the time being (:
jiaying: no i am not heh, i gave the meiji chocolate... too broke to get merci. haha. the section is soooo big now.
wanga: ehhh i cant make it this week ): anyway ask him to eat less, i've heard that he's bloated again. haha.
iamburpy: you and your great quote! haha. and yeahh treasure ur time with TIM!
samantha: yep things got better at least for now, thank goodness. and yeahh hope we have nice lil talks again! 21:11
13 July 2006
im really really very tired.
can you guys please be kind enough to give me an option out? is giving in really that hard that none of you can do so? you can ask me if you cant do it since i've been doing it for the past week.
我让步可是我不是布偶，不想受你们的气。怎么我连选择的余地都没有？
i hate this.
school is so much better. i think siva's crap is better and im serious. 20:14
11 July 2006
someone ought to change his title, from dr. to screwed. or anything more appropriate. he's making school life more and more unhealthy with the increasing number of episodes of anger after his lessons. we do not want life-threatening high blood pressure.
and of course, this makes life for me worse. both in school and at home.
darn. but i will survive. i'll be back.
but on a happier note again, i passed maths ((: whoo! though its a 40-plus % pass, its still a pass. thanks goodness considering i only did 50 plus marks and left the rest blank. but then i think i shall work hard, will thinking help? ah crap, i need to start moving my butt and stop rotting at some corner. 23:16
09 July 2006
there's probably gonna be a 'war' in germany tmr morning cos of world cup.
but im facing a war at home - an unplanned one.
)):
what a sad weekend. 11:32
07 July 2006
i enjoyed the talk i had with sam, val and sophia. its been quite a time since we talked like that, those heart-to-heart kind and its kind of heartwarming at times...
there's a lot of things, once you know, you know it. there's absolutely no way you can chuck it aside and forget completely. and then complications kick in and life becomes messier. i dont like a messy life, but mine never seems to get out of its mess.
and i tell you, one day im going to suffer from schizophrenia, given the amount of crap i have to tolerate at home. i cannot handle everyone's mood swings together with mine. its damn confusing and yeah you get the feeling. helpless.
anyway, on a happier note, went to watch she's my man today and great. im totally broke now.
and i mean it.
anyone wants to sponsor me? (: 20:46
05 July 2006
im reading again! i cant believe it but the book yueqi lent me is really nice and sweet and im like three-quarter done with it and can probably finish the book by tonight (: the part about annie made me think about her, its kind of sad, but at least after so many things, im quite glad im able to face it now, i think. (maybe there is just going to be some moments when things get a lil uncontrolable) but i guess i can survive everything through somehow. there just gotta be a way.
there's so many successful examples in history.
anyway, here's a big get well soon to yueqi and nicholas ((: and i bet yueqi's going to laugh her head off if she knows that on my gingerbread man, the icings said YAP! hahaha. and i accidentally put my gingerbread man on reihorng's table after gp, he thought that was his too XD oh yah! and get well soon to shueli too!
and yeahh elections results are out alr! congrats to everyone who got in ((: initially i thought i might be a lil disappointed with myself, but guess what, its amazing how things work when you are at peace with yourself. i've been there, done that. what more can i ask for (: and co still holds this lil dear part of my heart, no matter what... afterall it really made me grow up and its something i still enjoy. haha.
okay now replies to tags! [since eons ago]
na9ek: im replying your tag so late, it has been long since its over and results are coming out alr! =x
val: i was very tired then too, and extremely bored. heh.
samantha: dont think dr siva will ever realise XD
jiaying: yeahh it definitely feels good. you guys were great! enjoy every performance... (:
iamburpy: okay i have many of your tags to reply. firstly. HI -.- secondly, bio was not very okay as usual, but then im still hoping that i can earn that chocolate of yours... and yeahh hope you have overcome ur post concert depression... you still have one last one on the 22nd. and remember, this time you have all the rights to cry. haha.
Doomed FREAKZ: erm backstage? HAHAH. i wont want to! this is interesting, you are actually saying my comments are funny. that sounds totally wrong. hahaha.
xiaohong: dont mention it alright? i was pretty shocked to receive your sms on saturday night, you poor thing la! you gotta believe in yourself first k? oh and you didnt get to see me, because i didnt get to see you so i got xiaowei to pass you the chocolates!
done! 20:47
04 July 2006
went to watch 'just my luck' today at plaza sing, i thought it was quite entertaining and it brought a fair share of laughter (: seven bucks for easy entertainment? heh. i need to stop spending like that... that wallet is getting emptier. and soon someone's gonna say i lack money management again ):
never mind, money will come find its way to me soon i think. school terms are good times to save up, if you forget about the class fund collections.
anyway speaking about entertainment, its literally everywhere in sevenfive. HAHA. sophia's laughter, yiwei's crankiness, shueli's booming voice, yong and chris seah's antics.. [pls pardon me if your name doesnt appear here]
oh yeahh, i have been listening to this song since just now. kept looping it.
i once felt like that. and eunice, when i say let it go will you please do so?
if i let go, can you promise me that history does not repeat itself? i dont want to trust the wrong people again. 20:36
03 July 2006
went for nyco concert just now at SCH. ah well, what can i say, sitting there listening = moments and more moments of nostalgia.
its kind of amazing that you can still hold dear to the stuff that you once love so much, even when all seem kind of foreign. different faces and everything. but yet you know there's a tinge of familiarity somewhere.
dont think i'll blog a lot today, because i dont want to risk myself from running that tap.
oh anyway dear cellobass juniors, you guys were great! im damn proud of you guys ((: dont brood over the so-called screw-ups, just enjoy yourself on stage and give ur best shot on the 22nd okay? ((:
nyco. ((: 00:02
01 July 2006
okay, blocks are finally over ((: and yeah its so weird, cos you have to switch the mode from "i need to mug" to "i can finally play" and then you realise that the lethargy sets in faster than you have thought. heh.
so its nth dramatic after blocks:
1. went to cafe cartel with sevenfivers for lunch and hahah the service was kinda bad, cos we have to keep waiting for food. and a point to take note, never buy the pork ribs ALONE. the sheer size will stun you.
2. went to visit the juniors after that. time really does fly, and yeahh its going to be the sec four juniors' 2nd last performance so soon. i guess one year from when i left last year, i still miss that place loads just that this time round its another kind of missing it.
she told me this is the first time she felt so unconfident. but wells, sometimes i rather choose to believe in you guys.
3. oh yes, i met up with zhuolaoshi yesterday as well, hahaha and watched part of the family concert's rehearsal XD. so i actually get to see the programmes for free. its nice catching up with her i guess, okayy not to mention the fact that i officially do not take chinese anymore -.-
