the damned econs paper totally rocked. -.- and the gp essay was owning too. which reminds me, is there anyone who actually did question 8, other than me? sighh, its only the first day of promos and its pretty much screwed up already.
i was almost losing coherence close to the end of the econs paper, and my hand hurt like nobody's business. and the pen was wet cos of my wonderful sweaty palms. im just crossing my fingers that things dont go TOO badly. haha.
anyway, what's done cant be done, so yeah move on!
and yeah a random thought came by just now on my way home, or should i say maybe it's just hidden in the back of my mind, so might as well face it and be strong or something.
so i went back to bukit batok for dinner on saturday with my family and kind of visited the neighbourhood where i used to live - the old places and stuff. and we passed by her place. and i realise how badly i miss that place. not the area where i used to live but the place where she used to live. a lot of things have changed i thought, cos i do not remember them being what i saw them on saturday. but at those familiar places, i thought i could see us together again.
i still remember your smile, how you cared and everything. you know sometimes it scares myself to find myself having the thought wishing you were my mum instead. it's an incorrect thought, okay fine i shouldnt even be thinking about it, but apparently yeah sometimes when times were bad and i missed you so badly i find myself ended up tearing again. everytime, again and again i just couldnt let go.
and the fact today is i still cant. my last memory may be the one when i was twelve, but i can safely say without you my childhood wouldnt have been complete. but then again if that incident didnt happen, i could have been a happier person afterall. you changed my life and made me stronger even when you left.
i miss you.
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i hope you are fine somewhere out there. stay well. 20:33
