we are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
2 corinthians 4:8-9
many questions in me with no answers right now. sometimes people ask me what i am going to do in the future, im usually stumped. i know it's a bad habit, but i dont plan far, because i have no idea what i am going to do with myself. if you get the idea, it's kind of living day by day, and someone once told me that that's a slower version of suicide. you think so? i don't know.
i mean, you plan far ahead, you have something to work towards which is good in a sense. but what if things happen in such a way that where you are heading is actually further and further away from where you want to be? kind of like a lost boat out in the big blue sea, plus the strong winds isnt it. i dont want that kind of helplessness. but if i dont plan, where do i go? then what about the cliche thing again, what if i were to die tmr, then will i actually leave without regrets?
but then, i shall not talk about death, it brings back too much to handle.
questions, but where are the answers? will He be listening? if He does, then maybe i shall be patient and wait, cos i probably wont be alone.
what are the kind of meaning and satisfaction i am actually looking out for?
