still not feeling really great today, think it's something like a flu. my nose cant stop running ): oh wells. so yeah so i was feeling quite miserable and tired the whole day and productivity was really really low. sigh.
but today i was also reminded of what i've been stopping myself to think of. the sense of uncertainty, that bout of anxiety, i wonder why sometimes my mind works in such weird manners. heh. half the time, i'm trying so hard to convince myself let nature take its own course, when something's going to happen, it will happen. when it's not, it's not. but sometimes im just scared of what is to come, what if the outcome is what i have been dreading all along.
it's a cause-effect thing unfortunately. it's too late to start regretting now.
how many tomorrows do we actually have to waste? none in fact.
sigh.
with Your help, i need to break those walls. but is it that im building those walls faster than i can tear them down?
