want to believe that it's the rollercoaster phenomenon again, so that these down periods will be momentary. im not expecting a smile-24hr campaign or something, just you know, more smiles than frowns kind of thing.
it's only midweek and it's so freaking tired. think i need a lot of strength right now, physically and emotionally. the mind is rather weak at the moment and im so ready to go into standby mode. heh.
went for the moe discussion thingy today, there because i cant do physics, because i'm not taking physics now. really, if it's plain disinterest, there's seriously nothing much the government can do. i thought they should go do a discussion on ip instead, that one needs more attention heh. it felt damn weird to be the only one from hwachong, when there's at least two from the other jcs. and really, not doing well does not always equate to not getting a1. -.- and when discussion is informal, you will just be surprised how hwachong is badly misunderstood out there. but then again, i suppose no one there knew i was from the ip stream, and i didnt get into hc cos im a 6-pointer and i got a1 for physics. sigh.
but then on the train ride home, it's a revisit down the memory lane once again.
saw where i used to live and the places that you brought me with my eyes, and i continued seeing those days in my mind. i really thank you for completing my childhood, though it's a pity you cant walk on with me anymore. though at times like these, when things at home arent going well, the absence is harder to bear indeed. and no one at home knows about this. when the old stages are revisited, and the scenes are not playing anymore, teach me how to stop the tears.
i've learnt for so many years. still trying hard.
no one can replace someone else. it's wrong from the start to regard you as a substitute, but in the end, i realise no one can replace you as well.
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but last night, it was a blessing to have you guys to chat with. it was frightening at my side. 19:24
