cny day two, spent with mum's side of the family. i should say im more close to people there, and so more comfortable the whole day. and bryan and yanda just made my day, they are just fellas who are so freaking cute.
at least for the whole day, i dont have the idea that im mingling for the sake of creating some conversation so there wont be silence. really it isnt easy to go talk to people you havent for ages. (especially when we all know we have drifted so far from each other) we have all lost the game to time.
family obligations. how true.
tmr they will be visiting her place for cny visit. i guess i dont have a choice but to follow, but who really knows how much it actually affects me whenever i have to face that issue. since the day she left, i've forgotten how to look at them straight in the eyes without wanting to cry. it would be nice to find out how they are doing, but im not ready yet.
