i like samuel's teaching during cg today (: i should really learn how to look to God and know He's there when things dont go that well. because i guess, even till now, my first instinct is still to run. to hide.
keep running and running. it's so true because half the time when i collapse on the bed so exhausted, the mind just wont come to a rest. those scenes keep playing. those words keep ringing. and i wont stop dreaming. maybe its time to try to put a stop to all these.
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anyway, i need to get a bit more anxious about blocks! sigh. there still isnt much sense of urgency on my part, which worries me, but i have no freaking idea why i cant seem to get myself motivated enough.
and who's the smart guy who invented calculus? rargh. and i must be maclaurin's enemy in my previous life. zzz.
