right now, i feel this tinge of incoherence in me, and it has been the case for the past few days. there seems to be a lot inside the mind, but somehow you cant name what they are and words just fail. moreover, its indeed harder to phrase and express out certain feelings and thoughts. i just have no idea how to start.
so i start to rant a lot. in the other place which most cant find, in hope that i'll be able to capture that feeling correctly and sort out the mess in the meantime. so far, oh well, they have been futile attempts i suppose.
and i admit i cant do a lot of things. those within my ability, i promise i'll try really hard. maybe i hadnt been working enough in the past. but i guess those beyond me, i'll have to trust them in You. i just dont want to see everything as burdens as things get worse.
this is definitely not the best times of my life, but i want to learn something from it in the end. thank God for the family issue, though it's not resolved, subdued tension is more than i had prayed for.
it's not the end yet. so it will be okay in the end.
