now i'm utterly convinced that my life is really just a rollercoaster ride and more rollercoaster rides.
it doesnt take a lot to make me smile really, but it didnt take much to throw me into a bout of helplessness tonight. because right now, i really dont know what else i can do.
perhaps you do not understand a lot of things that i'm going through, and i confess neither do i know much about yours. but i tell you how i feel now, i feel like this person standing in the middle of an exposed field in a stormy night, waiting for the lightning to strike me. i dont even want to run anymore because there's really no solution in sight.
you dont believe i have co until that late.
you dont trust what im telling you.
you put words into my mouth.
you dont even know im not feeling well.
you dont even know i've lost count how many chances i've persuaded myself to give and just let things pass.
