it was not that easy to stay high and hyper for the whole of yesterday, especially when it meant so much to me till it drained me quite a bit. 29th may... its been an emotional journey approaching this day, first dreading it, then wanting to confront it head-on, then going a step wanting to let go.
the nightmare of six years should end. no one told me it's going to be easy to forget whatever that had happened, no one told me that you would have left such a freaking huge hole in me then i was lost for quite a while, no one told me im going to see someone die.
but someone told me that i will be stronger and after when i looked back, i would be so proud of how much i have overcome. i dont know how true it is, because there is only one wall. just that one wall. so high and unsurmountable. but i give thanks to how i was able to pull through yesterday, way better than past years (last year was half spent worrying about the crazy height element at ubin). i just have this positive instinct that things will get better from here. (:
and yes answered prayers and all the great timings of so many things happening yesterday. made it easier i suppose heh.
chem lesson at a heartless time of 7.45am, and be glad that i've got double digit for my chem test and be extra glad that i would most probably be in chem remedial, having attained the lowest possible two-digit number. then lunched with sophia and valerie while sophia shopped for her pair of pretty heels, but oh wells, flats will always be my thing (: walked around and lamented and pitied myself for not having enough savings and having to missed all the sales. my retail therapy :\
after which, went jiexun's house for mcg (: was pretty fun overall i guess, though i kept going to the cold storage to get food haha. and as usual, for all bbqs, its always about the process of getting the food done. all the dethawing operation, twisting of wing joints, and massaging and marinating and poking those wings and kudos to the bbq team who braced the fire (: black pepper fish was not bad, and so was the bbq pocky. and of course i really hit bmi 17.5. woots.
290507, i broke half the wall.
so since the fun's over, its high time to start serious work today.
