this entry page has been open for ... quite some time.
still blank, because you know sometimes its just so freaking hard to pen certain thoughts down. its hard, even to try talking about it. because i dont know how to start. its just bunch and a hell lot of mixed feelings.
and so yesterday was the day. 10th may 07. a while ago, i was telling someone i dont want it to end so soon, because soon enough before you would have realised, the next thing you know is that everything would be over. today becomes tomorrow's yesterday. and you find that what you are holding dearest to is no longer called reality. it has a new name - memories.
it was yesterday. hcco's syf. our performance. our music. our gold with honours. maybe like what the others say, we pwned the rest. sometimes, some things just awe me. maybe it was because of a thousand and one factors, but its the first time i got goosebumps from playing dadi. you know the kind of moment when you just feel like snapping your fingers and say "we have done it" haha. you get the idea (:
there's just this idea to put faith in yourself and people around you and there's really nothing called fear anymore. it's just plain believing and the human mind is definitely very capable with that.
the sky yesterday morning was overcast when i set off for school. but it was our day. so it was a brilliant morning in fact by the time we set off for SCH. mental note: good sign. look around, i saw smiles, good sign too. cello's tuning pegs looked alright too, made another mental note, prayed for it, which thank God, was answered. or maybe what shirlene said was right, i just need to coax my cello a bit haha.
then everything was fine, until i got slight diarrhoea. damned. haha. went to the damn toilet the moment i reached SCH, wth. its just exasperating. heh. but thank goodness it was fine during the performance on stage (:
the moment on stage felt like a dream. i have no idea why, rah okay it felt real too. -.- but just a sentence to sum it up, i enjoyed that performance very much and i was awed. like what bong had said, da di was really with us (:
and i can never thank enough for the people who walked this almost-ending co journey with me. im just glad that its you guys. not someone else. hcco 06-07. its where im proud to belong, and im just so glad so glad so glad that back then last year, i held on to this hope that belonging is reality and did not quit. because i can say now i belong.
