because i admit that im someone to tend to resist changes, rather prefer that things will always remain the same and constant and i'll be in my comfort zone happily ever after. maybe thats why sometimes i get so miserable with myself because that's just not possible in reality. time ticks past and events always change. people around us come and go, regardless whether i want it or not. so maybe this time i'll opt for a change and learn to accept it readily because i believe Your plans are good till the end of time.
so yesterday afternoon was the last combined hwachong caregroup session together. i think i was too tired to feel too sad then because of the aftermath of class chalet, but now i guess the sadness has started to sink in a bit. just a shoutout here, i really love you guys a lot a lot, and i mean it. the dynamics, the warmth, the friendliness, the care and concern showed are just unforgettable. like i say, you guys are just like a family outside home. (: at one of my lowest points in life last year, through Him and you people, then was i able to slowly pick myself up, and eventually open up a bit more. i thought i couldnt trust, believe or even love genuinely anymore. but you guys proved me wrong and taught me how. eunice heart the caregroup and every one of you in there.
despite this, i really wanna learn to let go. especially in this one whole year, i've been trying so hard to put down past events that have been bogging me down all this while. letting go doesnt mean forgetting about someone or something, maybe its just about moving on. moving on with what i have at the moment, with what the people around me have given me thus far, with the love i've received all the while. because afterall, it will be plain dumb to deny that what i am today was nothing to do with you guys.
dont think a blog entry is enough to round up what i feel about you guys, because you people are love, so much that my words and vocabulary cant express.
but here, sealed with a promise, i'll move on bravely and strongly. because His love never fails and and in Him we find love and joy together, and thats for eternity. (:
whatever it is, dont thinnk i'll ever forget that my initial steps of my walk with Him was with you guys. and im really proud to be from hc caregroup, under dearest CLs, fungmin samuel and tracee! (: and of course under one great God which im very thankful for.
john 15:12
and now. my excitement for the future path begins. 08:56
