end of week 1 of a levels. and i have 9 more papers to go. it wasnt until peiting asked me then i realised there's only 9 left. not too far before all these end.
i just took my possibly 2nd-last mathematics paper ever in my life this morning. awful would be an apt word to illustrate the process. can self-doubt actually exist together with calmness? because that was how i felt this morning, and what im feeling now.
i think, since you made me who i am to be, im probably not as pathetic as i think i am, really.
let me find the confidence soon and very soon. to live those expectations, and accept whatever that comes along nonetheless.
if this is the end of world, then this world must be that insignificant. so it wont be the end of the world because there's still so much more to see. 22:42
