year two thousand and seven.

it's hard to sum up this year simply because too many things have happened. changes are probably the only constant, some for the better, some seemingly for the worse, but i would say, all according to plan. there were many occassions i was stumped with choices that i had to make, when i wished that time would just freeze and skip that moment so nothing would have be decided and life goes on. but i suppose, its still the first instinct to choose the easy way out. this, i think, must change. but looking back, 2007 was awesome really, and this eighteenth year of mine has been truly a turning point in my life, a milestone that i dont think i'll ever forget. some events in life change us. 2007 changed me.

let me try to start from somewhere. like hwachong. (haha)

think i didnt blog about graduation at all, so yeah i graduated from hwachong in october and just yesterday i was talking to peiting about jc life and i realised i really enjoyed my two years in hc. despite the disgusting exams and academic struggle and stuff like that, the company made it all worthwhile i suppose. these two years of education - i'll miss the most ): true, theres integrated programme, and i think i was blessed in the sense that i was not surrounded by too many ip people and that really opened up an option to mingle around, like how jc education were like in the past.





being in sevenfive is a gift i believe. right from the start till the end. i think you guys are what made my jc life special because you guys are just... you. (: dont think i'll trade anything for this class because i think times with you guys really help me define something called a class. its not just a community who studies together, but really a community of individuals i can call friends. we may not be outstanding academically, unless you consider a top position from the bottom as oustanding, or if you consider surviving under siva for two whole years as outstanding haha. but really, next time if anyone asks me about my class in the future, i would stand proud and say im from sevenfive (: now that life is no longer the same, i'll miss the times we had in school, i seriously wouldnt mind going through exams again with you guys than this funny not-quite-there working life and then subsequently university. you know this sounds sadistic but when there were so many of us in all those post-prelims remedials, somehow i was glad i was not alone. but i know that how hard this a levels process is gonna be, i have company. but whatever it is, i cant turn back time, i thank everyone of you for giving me all those wonderous memories for the past two years, such that one day when i miss you guys so badly i'll even cry. but thanks for everything. when i look back at jc next time, let there be no regrets because those two years were with you people.

hcco (: something that i really would not have expected when i came hwachong. you guys are just... a pleasant surprise haha. from the start when it was tough because of the environment and the people, and when dyb was lukewarm to the max till today, i'm glad i've made true friends from this community of people. from the initial strangers, so things changed, and thankfully for the better. faces and voices around you become more familiar and the next thing you know when you smile at someone, he or she will smile back haha. and more and more it feels just like the right place to be in. we have so many differences among us but you just cant deny theres just something special and common in us that makes us come back week after week. dyb - the subtle but sweet section (:! in all, i think you people are people i know, even when i look at you years later, you will make me smile from the bottom of my heart. this story you guys have written with me, im locking it up with me. not partners on stage anymore, but what about in life?

and something that made this year very special is because it's the start of how i started walking with God seriously. i guess i couldnt never give thanks enough for what's been done in my life, because my life has been utterly changed since i received Him into my life. especially this year wasnt an easy year for me, in fact it got harder along the way, many times i was discouraged by what was happening around me, but thanks for never letting me go! and for keeping your promise, when you gave me the best birthday present in 23rd dec when my dad finally allowed me to attend service (: last time i sang praise and worship by the lyrics, but now i sing praise and worship songs by feelings. because images of what you have done in my life keep appearing. yes i cry, yes i tear, but you made me more human than the eunice from the past. im truly amazed by Your work, and for You, i'll strive to be an even stronger girl in You.

hwachong cg! eunice loves you guys (every one of you) a lot a lot deep down in my heart, and i gave thanks for this family that God has graciously given me to start off my walk with. this community of brothers and sisters really gave me a family outside home, doing lives together, giving me support through the down times i had. His love manifested times and again through you people, and thanks for being such an encouraging, caring, enthusiastic and most importantly loving bunch. (: love is probably what attracts me right from the beginning because of the various events that happened to me from the past, there's just this void in me that God slowly fills, and the overwhelming love i felt as well filling it. you know i read all those cards and people say i open up my life to them, but you guys are the reason why im opening up. the trust in others in which i had problems since young, the fear of being judged, but the love present bridged it all. come to think of it, these ppl prob know more abt my past than a lot of other people, so pls be honoured. we had no obligations to this family, but yet the little efforts that everyone of us put in to make things possible. and of course God who oversees everything and blessed the cg in quantity and quality. and that heart for God, guys and girls alike. the life transformations all so amazing. thankyou, really thank you. and thank You.










09:12


today when i was fretting over the lack of office wear to last me for the 4-day assignment next week, something just dawned on me.

my life is the same no more. this is a time of revolution.

holidays no longer feel like holidays. even when school starts in august next year, its nothing much like the schools that i had attended for the past 12 years. people around me are all moving on, each with our own lives, our own paths to take, our own futures to take care of. the faces around us are bound to change soon and very soon. our concerns change from grades and results to jobs and income and army and trainings.

growing up is indeed... scary.

welcome to the unsheltered world. -sniggers.
16:37


i just discovered the wonders of using picasa to upload pictures on a blog.

wow.
23:11


my 2nd true christmas (:

i think the commercialisation irks me a bit. i totally hate the swarm of people ransacking retail outlets just because theres a huge sign that says christmas sale. even christmas exchange gifts, all the towels and whatever, is it truly what the receiver needs or are these just bought because of sheer convenience?

that aside, sometimes it surely is better as the burdens are left behind slowly. the heavier footsteps becoming lighter. but that would mean all of us will be one step nearer to the unknown ahead. heh.

but wells, at least this time round, its not pitch dark ahead. maybe there will be some hiccups, but i'll just try not to let it overcome me instead.

and yeah, here wishing all a merry christmas and a blessed yr 08!
11:30


i can safely proclaim that you are really good. even when my faith is small, you still work wonders in my life (: truly worthy of my praises.

and i swear that was the scariest car ride i have ever taken. a levels dont even seem so intimidating, come to think of it. but thank God for letting me see my dad's concerns more clearly, and understanding the rationale behind a lot of things better. that 15-minute long conversation, it probably never went so deep before in my entire life.

thanks for those encouragements, really. at times like this, you truly appreciate the people around who care.

and...

happy birthday (:
19:21


in the silence, i asked myself. where is my courage?



i thought i knew something was on my placard.



but the silence between us is so apparent, it would be frightening to even make a squeak to break the silence.



the fan is whirring in the background. heh.
22:58


sometimes i wished i was given that love and respect. so that it will be easier for me to reciprocate. this past year hasnt been easier, in fact harder. i just wonder, if i was still the old me, would i just let my heart go cold and die off?

but the fact is, i am no longer the old me. and yes, i do believe that you are good all the time. all the time. my happy times, my down times, all the time.

but im not good. my faith is small.

when i face them, the sense of insecurity still creeps in.

...
21:11


how do i explain myself in terms you understand and accept?
20:19


there is none like you
no one else can touch my heart like you do
i could search for all eternity long
and find there is none like you

been writing christmas cards lately, and somemore activities such as this always bring back some memories that i would rather keep inside. it always reminded of the fragility of relationships somehow. in the period between last year and this year, what exactly happened kind of went a little off track, a little out of control.

new and old people. some will come and go? who will stay?

anyway jobwise, people who dont understand whats going on will probably question my rationale for rejecting a total of 12 job offers, not taking up an admin job even when it pays well. even for the interview i went yesterday, i think the lady was puzzled why i didnt want admin job, but rather choose a 2-week assignment instead. no matter how angry you guys can be at my decision, i hope im at least respected for my choice.

somehow, i'll find a way for me to tide through the transport fee crisis starting 1 jan.

(:
10:45


today i was touched by a promise that has come to pass, by an unexpected note, by a skit, by a timely message, a whisper at the ear, and the salvation of lives.

congrats to siyun who took that step of faith to rededicate your life once again, and for the first convert from ac! (: yay something is moving finally, and go ca3! win more ac hearts man.

for many reasons, my heart was weary but thankfully in it, i still feel a tinge of hope. definitely not the best times of the walk, but yes i'll press on. for the many questions i have in me, if theres an answer f0r them, may they come soon or in their own timings perhaps. for things that dont have an answer to, help me just let it go.

breathe, eunice.

2 chronicles 20:15
23:35


let's see how many more times i'll slip before im determined enough to get a new pair of slippers. especially challenging since its the rainy season and even more challenging since i need to manage my finances more carefully.

so many uncertainties ahead of me. every step needs to be treaded on carefully, with much consideration.

but let's just trust that wherever your light is, that is the best place i ought to be in. and i need to block off some distractions and some facts of reality.
22:06


x29.

just wanna give thanks because you have refreshed me finally after like that period of feeling so sian and dry. it just struck me how important it is to start with myself, because if thats not done nothing else can really stir inside anyway.

taught me the importance of giving thanks to everything i have. everything that i have now that i did not used to have. whatever you have given me thus far, i cherish. if i havent been, i really want to learn to. like really cherish, from deep down in my heart. i remember last night tears came because only you could have made all these things that have happened thus far possible. nothing else.

new group. new beginning. new goals and aims and visions. im excited, but i really gotta remind myself that nothing comes easy. but together with you, im gonna give my best shot. i promise, to the best i can.

somehow, i admit i still miss the old group. some things just never change, im still well, say rather resistant to change. but well eunice, you have to move on. move on and move on. dont ever let this be a hindrance to progress. no change no progress no advancement.

i have to remember, its your cause that matters in the end. not mine. what i am is yours.

jiayou. (:
17:17


for something exciting for the next 4 days! (:

(will be away but you can still reach me on my handphone)

not at the tip-top condition, but im expecting the unexpected. nothing's gonna stop you.
22:30


sometimes i really wonder, what did i ever do to deserve that? again and again, the same episode plays recurrently. that disappointment in me feeling the same as last time.

i cant hide, because its not right, and theres no where i can really hide myself in.

i cant confront either because two wrongs dont make a right.

if i ignore, you say im ignoring you.

sigh. the weather is good, i thought i would sleep the whole day away. so all the troubles will go away. but that isnt an option either.

i think i need to call 333. ):

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i closed my eyes and you brought me to a place where your love is just enough for me.

even when i can feel extremely unloved, i know at some corner, no matter when and where, im still loved by someone.

and thanks for using victor as a blessing today. (: i really appreciated it.

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16:23


the stop button is faulty.

and the show continues, and we are always seconds older than what we were before.

but if we can press the stop button, then whats next? just accept it, its faulty and no one is mending it.

prom details maybe next time. im really tired out by my body clock that seems to function too well.
22:50

prom later!

11:27


prom prep is starting to get onto my nerves. okay, it has already done so =\

dont think anyone's like me, im glad that prom is coming because that would mean its gonna be over soon. but then again, i dont want the last school event to end so soon, that would mean no more hwa chong isnt it?

i still remember that day during the last caregroup i told samuel that that day was probably the last day we are gonna be in hwachong campus for the year. maybe one day, i'll really miss those little corners in school, especially when the house gets a bit boring and when i no longer have enough money to fund my outings out of house. -.-

i think this entry is useless but who cares.

and i still have no idea whats gonna happen tmr heh. but oh wells we shall see. now i shall just gobble down my lunch and go for wfl at town later. plus meeting felicia later to get the clutch im borrowing from her (:

just another day.
12:28


uh oh. i accidentally ate beef at jiexun's place just now and there are red spots on my legs. i hope they are itchy mosquito bites and not rashes =\

and im really feeling the pinch on my finances. they are seriously not doing very well and it just gets exasperating because i dont like the feeling of being in debt, and the feeling of having to worry how much i can spend the next day without going all hungry on another. singapore should seriously consider lowering the food retail prices -.- and transport fees too. since my ezlink is going to beep only once next year.

to top it all, im feeling rather dry lately.

oh wells.

what goes up should come down by now. just that i need to go back up in time.
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