on certain days, you just wish you have a clone, because choices are hard to make. but reality is we can never enjoy the best of both worlds, it's either this or that, no option called 'all' is given. how to decide? if something needs to be measured, what kind of ruler ought to be used? and after coping with ourselves, how to cope with others?
change is the only constant. physically, emotionally, spiritually. things around us change. people around us either stay or leave, and those who stay may not be the same individuals as we knew them some time ago. both pastor shirley and raphael made a lot of sense today. im someone who clings onto the past, and im someone who fears the uneasiness of change. but here, i promise myself i'll try my best. afterall, i dont really want to screw up my life again, im definitely not capable enough to steer myself into a path towards a great future with my own strength.
and a side note, i think i'll miss kityeng. ):
ps. i dont like what i felt when i reached home today. i think someone should invent an emotional heater. 23:52
